The world does not revolve around you boo boo!!!

People are selfless, considerate, and nonjudgmental. I’m serious. The problem is that we confuse terms while acting irrationally then disguise them as good or blame it on our wonderful upbringing, open hearts and my favorite; Jesus. A pastor would say that the bible teaches one to be selfless, to do unto others as you would like them to do unto you, and only GOD can judge. Let’s explore this a bit more thoroughly.

A selfless person is one who does things for others. If I need something , a selfless person should give to me in spite of themselves. Good person right? On the other hand, a selfish person is one who does things for themselves. If I need something, a selfish person will not give it. Bullshit. What this actually means is that if I get something from a selfish person, I got it because they wanted me to have it, not because I needed it. The best part of that is a person who gives you something because they want you to have it does not expect anything in return. This is the person who buys flowers just because. Where as a selfless person who gave in spite of themselves in turn expects you to do the same for them. A person who gives in spite of themselves does not value themselves and in turn does not value others. In a relationship a selfless person will buy you nice gifts and expect "gifts" in return. They in turn are never satisfied. Eventually they will decide the return on their investment is not in surplus and stop investing. (I just explained why alot of relationships don't work.)

In exploring considerate, we have to keep in mind that I’m speaking about a selfless-consideration. Remember the person who does not value themselves. Yeah! Now we’re talking about how they didn’t call when they were going to be late. There time is not important. Why is yours? What makes you so special? What you think you're Father Time now? They were selflessly giving of themselves to another. There were other things they could have been doing and they were not complaining. So why are you complaining for having to wait? Could you believe that a selfishly considerate person who values their own time will actually value yours too? That person would say, “I want her to call me when she’s late so I’m not going to give her an excuse not to”.  Crazy logic isn’t it. (I just explained why America is never on time. Could this really be an argument to genuinely seperate religion and state.)

You know Christians are not judgmental. Nope, not at all. Remember, they do for others selflessly. So they take time out of their busy lives to assist Jesus in getting your life together as they see fit. They never get to the judging part. They’re too busy trying to save you from a Hell they imagined while selflessly considering that there is no way you don’t drink water and you like it real hot. You feel me. There’s no way in this life anyone would prefer their idea of Hell to their Idea of Heaven. You see, judgment is something passed. So when you pass judgment, you sentence the person and move on. If a selfish person judges your lifestyle as one they want no parts of, they leave you alone. Real simple right? The judgment is “something about you is undesirable”. The punishment is “we will not associate”. ( I just explained why we should stay the fuck out of each others business and worry about ourselves.)

I was a selflessly-considerate, non-judgmental person. I was miserable, so why shouldn’t everyone else be. I selflessly considered my mom when I did a lot of dumb shit. I was giving of myself in spite of me and her. I didn't value myself so I made her give her time and life energy worrying about me. I had a hero complex too. I wasted countless hours and emotions trying to save people who didn’t want to be saved. Damnit, they liked whatever they were doing.  I didn’t get better until I reevaluated what I was saving them from. What Hell? Get real. I wasn’t saving anyone from Hell. I was doing what others wanted in spite of myself and expecting others to be miserable with me. (I just explained why people knowingly spread HIV. A selfless person does not value theier body or yours. They get HIV giving of themselves in spite of themselves, then pass it on in spite of others. A selfish person who values themselves would protect themselves and in turn protect others as well. )

A painter doesn’t paint a picture then stand over it for the rest of his life repainting any part that fades. When he gives it to someone he can’t put stipulations on it that punish the person for how he interprets it or where he hangs it, or even who inherits it after the owner is long gone. For if he did, he couldn’t pay someone to take it off his hands. (Hopefully you caught how I just explained why a lot of people commit suicide.) I refuse to believe that my creator left a list of things for me to do in the meantime, to guarantee me an afterlife that I may not want and very well may not get anyways; since it may not exist.

I am selfish, selfishly considerate, and judgmental. I don’t give money to homeless people because they need it. For all I know they may be living better than me. I give them money because I want them to have it. I take people into my home because I can’t sleep with the idea of them having nowhere to sleep. I don’t expect anything in return for this because I got what I needed. I slept. You feel me. I selfishly consider others because I want them to selfishly consider me. I value my life, my love, spiritual freedom, time, energy, etc. And in turn I value others and theirs. And hell yeah I judge others. You have to, that shit could save your life. I value my feelings, so if I get a bad vibe, then you get gone. End of discussion. Judgment passed, sentence rendered.

Fact is that the world is not a bad place. We have been ill-advised, misinformed and "bamboozled". Most of us are confused, so we appear bad when we actually just have low self-esteem, a twisted view of ourselves, and believe the world revolves around us. The books of the bible were written by people who believed the world was flat. They thought that the heavens were in the clouds and hell was just below the dirt on earth’s surface on the flip side. They had the luxury of believing themselves to be singular. But here today we question life outside our earth. We know the world isn’t flat and we know that the ideas practiced then, make no sense now. Earth is merely a point in space. Get over it. The world has not, does not, nor will it ever revolve around you BOO BOO!!!

This for that chick on the bus that told me she was a God-Fearing Christain and she wanted to help make sure she saw me again in heaven. I politely told her "It's your right to live in fear if you want. But no thank you for the help. I like it hot!!!" I wish I had some cards for the blog. I would have given her one. LOL.

"Not sorry, I don't believe. Amen."

What would happen if we didn’t rely on books to tell us what was good and bad? Seriously, if the New and Old Testament didn’t exist, penis and booty could go in the same sentence without anyone’s nose twitching. Terms like lesbian, bisexual, gay, and black would be just terms like heterosexual and Caucasian. The world would be great if we didn’t judge anyone past whether or not we wanted them in our lives? Phrases like “You live how you want, just not around me” wouldn’t be considered cruel because no one would say “You can go to Hell on your own watch” afterward. And when they said “goodbye”, it wouldn’t be with snobbish pride for their “strength” to follow GOD and not do whatever it is you’re doing.

I find it amazing that when I tell an atheist that I could have figured out “Thou shalt not kill” on my own, they agree that there is a time and place for everything. There should be no killing outside of legitimate war. But when I tell a Christian they believe I only know this because it was in the Bible first. They can’t fathom that one death would have been enough to realize that someone lost a mother, a father, a friend. I wouldn’t want someone to kill me, so I’d say it was bad. And see, at first I thought that the Bible had brainwashed the masses. But really, the stories written in the bible are so farfetched that most can only believe them if they really want to. The Bible to a rational thinker is the equivalent of telling a 5 year old that Santa delivered the bike, he just asked you to put it together for him. Even a five yr old would ask “So what do Santa’s helpers do?” The creators of christianty were very intelligent. They realized that while some people were like them and lived in a reality that they could act as self-dictators in, most were not. And for those, they granted a Savior.

And a GOD was created by His creation to lead us. To stand as an overbearing parent that interferes in our daily lives to guide us and test our loyalty (obligation) to Him. He was given human qualities so we could relate to him, omnipotence so we would exalt Him and an enemy (Satan) so we could blame everything “They” did on him. And for blacks, from this came the cycle of their wrongs to us, and our prayers: unanswered. And we found our safe and abiding complacency in the crumbs we were given along the way. We feigned fullness and even denied our thirst in idle acceptance of what we knew was…nothing. When we were tired of fighting any fight we solaced ourselves with incredulous statements like “It’s in GOD’s hands”. And we put down our weapons and said no blood for blood; “Thou shalt not kill” then reveled in our disappointments on earth by shouting our decorated air castles of grandeur, golden streets, and mansions for all in a place we imagined called Heaven.

This GOD we chose was our docile attempt to debunk the legitimacy of being no more than just another creation created and left to fend for itself. And out of this denial, Blacks got what we have today.

“Thank ya masser for freein us from slavery. We just gone keep these mind shackles of racism, contrived equality, and closeted abuse. And we promise when we prove ourselves intelligent in school and you choose our top ten and take them out the ghettos, we’ll gobble them crumbs like steak. And they’ll try and be so much like you that we won’t trust them to lead us anymore. So we’ll stay in the ghetto without leaders. We’ll call our should have been leaders Oreos while they look down on us in disdain heightened by their revelation of our “Blackness”. We promise while you put schools in the ghettos with apartments and base education funding on property taxes, we’ll stay there and not even learn that much. No sir, we won’t dare move to your upper-class neighborhoods by the masses. You can sprinkle us flies in the milk that is your society, as you see fit, while we lie unmoved in the ghettos you gave us and carry out all the plans that were laid out in the “Willie Lynch Letter”. I’ll push my daughter to independence and coddle my son until the roles are permanently reversed and the family structure is no more. I promise I’ll sell your drugs and kill my brothers as if only to prove that I hate myself and my people. And when you arrest me unequally and put me in your cages of artificial retribution as if you are a hero in a cycle you created, I’ll convince myself I deserve it and swallow the pain of being subhuman as if it were thumbtacks. But no, I won’t fight. “I’ll put it in GOD’s hands”. I’ll go to church, pay my tides, and pray about it."



Amen!